This How I Feel

Hi everyone

I’m just sitting here thinking about everything that’s going on right now. We have so much going on in the world with the pandemic. And with police brutality going on. On memorial day which was last week a man named George Floyd was murdered. I have seen clips I can’t see the whole video I can’t do it. And I’m going to explain why I can’t do it. The clips that I seen was enough because the more I see it the more angry I get.

Now I’ve been angry for a long time because my heart is breaking how they treat black people. I am a African American woman, I see it all the time how white people and the cops treat African-American people. There is so many people that have fallen that have died for no reason. Every time I talk about the subject it makes me wanna cry. I was just sitting in the bathroom thinking about all the videos that I’ve seen because I am on TiKTok and Instagram. And I have seen some good videos about people talking about the situation. But yesterday I broke down and cried and I kept on crying. I have a reason to be angry and frustrated. I have a reason to voice my opinion. I have a reason to yell scream shout holler. I have a reason to feel this way.

I’m frustrated with everything going on in the world which there is a lot going on in the world. But for that man to put his knee on that man’s neck for almost 10 minutes it was wrong. I’m tired and I am scared because I have a young brother. A young 19-year-old black brother. He is out there in the world trying to find his way in this world. He gets frustrated he gets angry and he has every right to get frustrated and angry. My mother tells him that you will be ok and the reason why you’ll be ok. It’s because you are covered in gods blood.

Every time I see young man specially my brother because he has a lot of mixed friends but most of them are black. That’s the one thing I love about my brother in the way that our mother taught us. The way our mother taught us you should love everybody it doesn’t matter about their skin color about their sexual preference it does not matter at all what matters is that you get to know them. All that matters is that you get to know the person not because of the color of the skin.

So wrote this weeks ago because this how I felt, And I still feel this way. In the next week I will be posting things that I wrote a long time ago because I'm ready for you guys to see it.